Alexander’s English Blog

 I was having sleep paralysis this one time while being on top of a bunk bed and i wasn’t a stranger to it as it happened to me before but as soon as i knew I couldn’t move my body i resorted to quickly closing my eyes as I didn’t want to see whatever was going show up and i just wanted to return to sleep but as i was sleeping i heard someone whisper into my ear saying “im coming for them” which scared me to the point i didn’t want to see it and was also confused on how it whispered when i was on the top of a bunk bed with only space for one person and it was night too. I sometimes wonder who they meant but i all i know its a group as i heard the word “them” whatever it was it was scary to the point i still remember.

 I workout a lot and after working out my body is drained and I can’t do any physical activity and leaves me with low focus but one time was when I was working on my legs the next day I couldn’t walk at all and I needed help to walk for the majority of the day as I walk it would bring immense pain. I was thinking why this happened and figured I should limit myself when working out and the limit is that as soon as I feel a sharp pain I need to finish my set and rest. 

 I was down and wasn’t eating when I came from school and went straight to sleep after doing my homework as I was extremely exhausted and didn’t want to do anything even play video games which was my favorite doing all the time and my noticed and said I couldn’t keep this up as it wasn’t healthy and took me to see a therapist and a doctor. A therapist to talk about my mental health and a doctor to check my health saw that I had too much blood and told me I had to drink plenty of water. I’m fine now but that moment was when I was at my lowest point in my life so far.

 Being at the track near my home, especially when I’m alone and just listening to music and also when im alone there as if it’s my own place that no one else can be. When I am alone there I just lay on the bench and look and stare up to the sky or take a small nap and like it because no one can disturb me and I just clear of any bad thoughts and have a quiet time.

 When relying on someone if it’s just a quick question or help I’ll ask and be done with it or quickly ask someone if I don’t understand something like in math I’ll have no problem but usually I don’t like relying on others as I don’t want to bother them and rather have myself focus on my problems/work without any help as it would be a distraction for them and me to waste time while they’re also finishing their work also me, I only rely on others when it’s something actually important or I im in a difficult situation.

 In junior year I decided for my senior year to have weight training as a class then once it was senior year I thought we would be able to just do whatever workout we wanted and we just had to work out and get our grade but no it’s something different everyday that leaves me sore most of the time everyday and I just want a moment of relaxation due to being in a sore state but it’s something I can’t change I just deal with it and make it part of my routine everyday of working out instead of being a one time thing.

  It was a New years gathering and we drink as soon as the clock hits midnight but I didn't know what was in the drink and asked then I was told it was alcohol which surprised me as I didn't want to drink due to the rule I set myself with not ever drinking alcohol, I didn't want to be disrespectful so I only took a sip only and gave it away and I was in disgust as in my mind I thought it didn't taste well and how can people like this. I don't ever want to drink alcohol and be an addict as I never want to experience of trying to quit or the addiction of alcohol as that is torture to not myself but to my freinds and family.

 The long walk was 1hour and 30 mins and it was from a certain point to all the way to my home. At first I have a bunch of energy and I mostly listen to my music to pass the time or listen to a video on YouTube while I walk. When walking I lookout from anywherefor cars and people just in case for anything. But when walking the bag on my back is annoying as Im trapping heat between my back and bag making me sweat but I don't mind and when getting close to home my legs feel heavy but are actually sore but once I get home I shower then I rested and slept for a while then I woke up feeling better.

 At the beginning of the break I just wanted to workout and better my upper body strenght for those 2 weeks but instead I got sick twice for most of the break due to my sister and the maybe the flu too but I recovered a couple days before the 6th of January to sum it up terriable as I didn't get a good 2 weeks as I didn't get to do what I wanted. Goal 1: The first goal I would like to complete this year is to get a car. It's an important goal for me as it allows me to explore any opportunities by traveling and handle any tasks that need to be completed. To complete this goal, I would need to find the budget for purchasing the car, find the best car that suits well in both safety and usage, and lastly insurance and maintain the car. Goal 2: The  second goal I would like to complete this year is to explore Japan this summer.  It's important for me as I get to explore a different culture in a different country with new foods and activities. To achieve this goal, I would...